I started my book on mindfulness and have listened to the first two lessons three times each and still need to go back over it but there are some interesting points made so far.
1. Anxiety is healthy in an evolutionary sense. Learning to anticipate danger while seeking comfort is how we came to be what we are now.
Consider this: There is a big yellow-brown lump on the other side of the bush. If you assume it is a lion, get scared and run away when it is only a rock you can afford the mistake with only a little anxiety and stress to show for it. If you assume it is a rock and it turns out to be a lion, you only get the make that mistake once and your genetic material does not live on. Conclusion: We are the product of the smart and / or lucky ancestors.
2. Learning to be mindful includes fully experiencing your emotions and surroundings. Acknowledge them and meet them head on to minimize pain and suffering. (My therapist is coming through on this part) Put it into a logical box and decide what can be done but more importantly what are YOU doing about it.
Jon,
I also own a trucking company with my brother. We have come close to bankruptcy twice this year alone with the latest case still in progress of recovery. I don't know the laws the in the UK but in the USA, each business I have set up has been a separate legal entity from myself and from each other. If one goes down, it doesn't have to take the others with it. I manage the stress like this: Either I'm all in or I'm all out. I'm already invested fully and as the financial guarantor for the businesses, I would lose it all anyway with some possible exceptions so I may as well throw everything I have at it until it becomes clear that I will lose.
I suggest you let your legal team fight the battle of Win or Lose, you focus on plan B and how to recover in the aftermath. If you manage to survive this, you will be better off. If you fail, you will at least be prepared and have a plan to follow or deviate from rather than letting the circumstances determine your reactions. It's easier said than done.